I wanted to share with you authentically about my journey of Lotus Destiny. This story is part of a movement - the Busting The Overnight Success Myth: Community Blog Tour, where 21 ladies who have made their dream business a reality (in a variety of different niches) share what it really took for us to make this happen including the not so pretty stuff.
When Allison Braun (The Business Joyologist) shared her vision for this blog tour with me, I knew I wanted to be a part of it because I feel it is my mission to align people to their soul’s purpose so they can experience a vibration of success. To me success isn’t just having everything that looks good on paper, it’s a lot more than that. If you have the material aspects of success (your ideal car, money, the perfect man, etc.) but inside you are not truly in love with yourself it doesn’t matter how much you do or how much money you make you won’t feel truly satisfied. What I want to share with you are the shadow sides of myself that you may relate to in this journey.
Your soul has a purpose in this life. While running a business you are always aligning yourself to your soul’s purpose which naturally causes you to grow. With growth can come some discomforts whether its directly in your business or relationships. Whatever happens in your relationships also relates to your business. I remember my former mentor Jennifer Longmore telling me “If you want to learn more about yourself, start your own business.” You are your own boss in your business so you can either hide, or face the truth about yourself. So here is my story. It's raw, real and includes things I've never shared before!
I was an undercover jedi lightworker in the corporate industry. In 2009 I had reached 7 years working at an architect firm as an architectural technologist. Part-time I was teaching and consulting with clients using the Akashic Records, Star Activation system, Reiki, and other energy modalities. I kept it very separate from my identity working in architecture. I thought if I had fully revealed myself to others I would be considered completely “woo woo” when my deepest prayer was to share that we all have a natural ability to tap into our intuition and experience the power of our soul.
I have to admit though other people thought I was successful, I was feeling unsatisfied in my life. My external reality looked good, but my internal reality was not so healthy. Even though I received a sweet paycheck I was seeking for a deeper meaning to life and working a 9-5 job was not the answer to my prayers.
As I entered into a leadership program I noticed that I was surrounded by amazing entrepreneurs and thought to myself “this is my tribe.” I knew that this was a sign for me to leave my architectural job and allow my intuitive healing business to grow by stepping into my leadership role. I am not going to lie, I was totally scared to leave my comfort zone and my lovely paycheck, but the thought of doing nothing was scarier.
When you take a big leap of faith the universe catches you with a big net. I took a deep breathe and decided to go for it. I left working at the architectural firm and was set free to fully embark in my business as an intuitive soul coach. No sooner did I hire my former mentor full time to show me the loops in running a conscious business. What was really special is that my mentor really got me and understood my gifts and inspired me to implement them and create my ideal services and programs.
It was not easy at first as I had to learn how to run a conscious business and support myself financially. My first year I barely made anything, but something inside me knew to keep going as I was feeling much more happier with myself and growing. This time my internal reality was content and at peace, however my external reality was in lack. Back to the drawing board!
By 2010 I rebranded my business and had the prettiest website! I had shifted my business to focus on Goddess Empowerment for women with new Goddess coaching programs. This time my internal reality was matching my external reality. I could feel the vibration of success with many new long term clients and started a relationship with a man that felt in alignment to my purpose. Six months going in to my personal relationship with my partner I started to give my power away tremendously and it was affecting my business. The relationship was toxic and the energy was bleeding through into my business.
Here I was running Goddess Empowerment programs where I attracted a fair amount of clients, but behind closed doors I felt like I had not mastered being in my own Goddess power. I was suffering in my intimate relationship where I had gained 25 pounds and was so angry at myself for not setting healthy boundaries. I felt like I had lost my identity, like I had forgotten who I truly was.
After ending this relationship in 2011 I was in a raw state where I started to compare myself to other entrepreneurs. I was very hard on myself and realized that I needed to reach into my own tool kit to claim back my Goddess power. Self-compassion was a huge key in re-establishing love and honour for myself again. I hired a personal trainer and transformed my body which immediately reflected in my business. By claiming back my Goddess power Lotus Destiny came back alive again.
In this next phase from 2011 to 2013 I was introduced to Kate Muker of The Conscious Divas and started co-hosting a networking gathering with April Tioseco Bellia of Granola Girl called Serendipity Tea Party. All of a sudden I was surrounded by like minded women entrepreneurs who wanted to connect and create deeper conscious relationships. Co-hosting the Serendipity Tea Parties and attending Diva Date Nights I felt myself surrender more into my purpose. By connecting with other women I realized that we are all on the same path to self-realization as business owners. It was so refreshing to know that we could all be authentic. Through vulnerability came the courage and strength to be supported for my creative gifts. I got to witness many women step into their purpose fully and it was so rewarding. I also recognized that what makes me happy is connecting women together. Again I could feel this vibration of success.
When I talk about the vibration of success it is where your heart chooses to remain open to trust, receive and the universe responds back. Being around amazing, like-minded women created trust within myself and that self-confidence opened the door for me to receive more ideal clients. I felt seen, understood and safe to really blossom as a soul. It is important to celebrate your uniqueness by connecting with those that support your soul’s purpose.
As I awakened more to myself I realized it was part of my mission to help others awaken to themselves. I started to experience a oneness with those that I was of service to and now I have come to believe I am co-creating a reality with them, celebrating our growth together.
I now find it easy to maintain a state of grace and gratitude, embracing challenges that arise and opportunities to love my shadow instead of resisting it. I have also felt judgment for others fall away as I can embrace their shadow too. I have come to realize that loving the dark is what transforms it. Nothing new here, all the great mystics spoke of this, but when its your experience it becomes real.
If you've ever felt alone on your journey or like you weren't as far as you "should" be, I invite you to check out more of these real-life stories by going here to join the Busting The Overnight Success Myth: Community Blog Tour. I know sensuous Devi Ward shared her story yesterday along with other amazing ladies that started July 2nd.
With deepest love,